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I WAS THINKING TONIGHT THAT NO MATTER WHAT IS THROWN MY WAY I AM GOING TO BE STRONG AND GET THROUGH IT, IF I CANT GET UP BECAUSE I HURT SO BAD I'M NOT DOING IT, I AM NOT LETTING CLEANING MY HOUSE A # 1 PRIORITY ANY MORE I LIVE ALON AND I CAN STOP BEING EXTREME MANIAC ON HOW CLEAN IT IS LIKE I HAVE BEEN IN ALL MY YEARS, THAT IS ONE THING THAT BRINGS ME LITERALLY DOWN IN BED FOR DAYS AND FOR NOW ON I AM NOT BIG SHOPPING I WIL GET ALITTLE AT A TIME THIS 200.00 OR MORE SHOPPING FOR GROCERIES IS NOT HAPPENING ANY MORE, I AM IN TEARS EVERY TIME I DO IT AND IT TAKES ME 2 HOURS TO GET IT IN THE HOUSE AND PUT AWAY NOT TO MENTION ALL THE WALKING IN THE STORE SO LITTLE SHOPPING FOR NOW ON, I AM NOT GOING TO OVER OBSEESED OVER THIS DIVORCE MY HUSBAND HAS STARTED, I CANT TAKE IT WITH MY NERVES ANY MORE SO HE WANTS THE DIVORCE GO A HEAD I WILL FIND A WAY TO BE HAPPY WITH OUT HIM I WILL SURVIVE ANOTHER STAB IN THE BACK BY A MAN, AND MOVE ON

ALL THE STUFF THAT I SWALLOW AND DONT TELL ANYONE IS BEING EVICTED, I MYSELF HAVE TO FIND A WAY TO DEAL WITH MY DISABILITY AND WHERE I AM GOING TO LIVE AND MY HAPPINESS, WHICH I HARDLY EVER HAVE BUT MAYBE IF I START DONG ALL I HAVE MENTIONED THINGS WILL LIGHTEN UP, THE LONGER U KEEP ALL THE SHIT INSIDE AND DONT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT THE WORSE OFF MY HEALTH IS GOING TO BE, AND EVEN IF IT ONLY LASTS FOR AWHILE I WILL STILL KEEP MY HEAD ON STRAIGHT AND PLOW THRU IT LIKE I AM A CHAMP, NOW THATS NOT TO SAY I'M NOT GOING TO HAVE BAD DAYS EVERY ONE DOES, BUT I AM NO LONGER DOING ANYTHING THAT KEEPS ME IN THIS DAMN BED IT HAS TAKEN ME 4 YEARS TO REALIZE THAT I AM REALLY DISABLED AND I HAVE TO CHANGE MY WAYS OF HOW I DO THINGS, NOW ALL I HAVE TO DO IS PRAY PRAY  PRAY,

LOTS OF LOVE TO YA'LL,   PEACE TO YA, WHIITETIIGER